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Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Small Steps Forward

Some small steps yesterday and today:

- My dieting herbs came. I'm on practically every supposed weight-loss herb known to man. My next post, I'll make a list and describe what they (supposedly) do. (Can you say ephedra?)

- Got my new gym membership last night. I start tonight. (The only trouble is, both my boss and the company's owner go there after work. I'm hoping it won't give me nerves.)

- Started monitoring my diet more exactly again, with the Cron-O-Meter. I'm following the Louise Super Skinny Me diet, more or less: two protein shakes and one high-protein meal totaling around 800 calories, two hours of exercise a day. (I'm not really trying to copy that diet, but it's basically how I function anyway. I'm actually increasing my intake, technically.)

In celebration, I've chucked aside my embarrassment to upload photos! Plus, I want to take "before" photos of my body to compare when I start my new regimen. Try not to barf.



Pathetic. Gross. Puke.

So this is me at 130 and super-flabby. (Keep in mind this is 45 pounds less than I was in June - give me a break!) The last time I weighed 130, a lot more of it was muscle, so I looked a lot better then... these pictures are slightly nauseating. Hopefully they won't be accurate for very long.

Today it begins...wish me luck!

15 voices:

Africana said...

Good luck!!! xox

Isabella said...

I'm really happy that you worked up the courage to put pictures up!! I'm excited to see your next post.

Stay Strong!

Semira said...

It takes a really brave person to put up pictures of themselves. I'm really proud of you, and I'm excited for your progression. Keep up the good work, girl. :]

Insane Jayne said...

Pressure's on now!;)
sounds like over the past few weeks you've gained alot of motivation from somewhere.. hope it lasts for you! stay strong x

Holly said...

you've lost 45 since June!? now that is a success story...
Can't wait to see you transform!!
so proud of you putting ur pix up :P i weigh the same but i was too chicken... maybe i will thanx to u :P

AuroraP said...

wow, good for you to post pics... I can't even own up to my weight right now, much less my actual appearance.

best of luck in 2010!

Ana's Girl said...

I really excited for the post about the weight loss herbs... even though i'm sure i'll be too poor to buy any of them.

therearebones said...

yay for pictures :)
keep up the good work in 2010!

Kate Lunacy. said...

thanks for your comment I really appreciate it.

STAY STRONG YOU GOING TO BE SKINNY

love you <3
beautiful-lunacy.blogspot.com

embre said...

45 since june! you are a super woman! wow you know, it takes alot of strength to put pictures of yourself up, but even more strength to lose such an amazing amount in a small span of time. you show us all its possible, no matter what our starting weight is. thank you for sharing yourself with us.
i am 100 % sure you will succeed.
stay strong

were going to need your strength in the new year.

meg

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Mad Bird said...

I'm on ephedra, and I think it's finally kicking in. I started at 8mg 2x a day for a week, then the same with 16mg for a week, ditto with 24mg, also with 30mg, which is where I am now. 30 mg 2x a day (but having worked up to it gradually) seems to have done a good thing, so far. I'm seeing weight loss a little every day, so long as I don't pig out, which I don't want to also, as a nice side effect of the med. I'm taking ephedrine HCl, not ephedra/ma huang, though. I feel it's more standardized and each batch is more likely to be the same. And people report having less jittery/nervous feelings. But everyone's different.

Let me know how your experience goes.

I think I started the ephedra at 123-ish pounds, and yesterday I weighed in at 114.something. But I ate more today than I should have, and purged none, so I bet I'm not that low now. But you see my point?

Mad Bird said...

-sorry, that wasn't supposed to be anonymous, up there, that last comment, that was me, Mad Bird. Just pressed the wrong button.

Anonymous said...

45 lb is a HELLA lot of weight to lose, chica!!! Atta girl! *whistles* Congrats, and keep up the good work!

Lucidity said...

Wow, I admire you for putting up pictures! I'm 123,2 (56 kg) now and I still don't have nearly enough guts to do it.
<3

 

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